“The world is full of magic things, patiently waiting for our senses to grow sharper.”
When we silence our thoughts & emotions, and open-up to the subtle, deep, magical realms around us and within us, we realize that all of life is a spiritual mystery. That mystery is superimposed and woven throughout the much denser world of the five senses. It is reality itself, always here and available for our witnessing. We just need to sharpen our "sight" to see.
As writer Tom Cheetham brought to the foreground of my consciousness years ago: it’s been a long time since many of us have really experienced the world. Instead, we experience a constriction of it, a selection of it, a lack of breadth and depth. We step out cautiously checking ourselves against ‘what is allowed’ and ‘what is known.' Then we throw a world out ahead of ourselves and move safely into it. We have found our way into a closed world and mistaken it for infinity.
So what happens when we're fully present, embodied, and perceiving free from conditioning, influences, beliefs, cultural & familiar programing, compulsion, cynicism, self-loathing, trauma & survival-based fears, expectations, hopes, wishes, desires, dreams, logic, reason, toxic positivity? What happens when we look at the world through zero filters, without any of our identities? What happens is: we see.
This takes great courage, for the world in front of us (or the person inside us) is not always the reality we want it to be. Which is why we oftentimes avoid looking, or we see only what our protective filters allow us to see. Nietzsche saw this as a natural, preservative instinct in the psyche that he called "the will to superficiality" - an embracing of the trivial and an avoidance of anything troubling, profound, or anomalous. By focusing on the trivial, humans become more "flighty, lightsome, and false" unwilling to dive beneath the surfaces to see reality more clearly. He believed that this protected against the chance that one might "get a hold of the truth too soon, before they have become strong enough, tough enough, artist enough to handle it." He further wrote: "It might be a basic characteristic of existence that those who know [the truth] completely would perish, in which case the strength of a spirit should be measured according to how much of the 'truth' one could still barely endure – or to put it more clearly, to what degree one would require it to be thinned down, shrouded, sweetened, blunted, falsified."
I created an interpretation of the various spheres of identity we carry inside us - the veils that must be lifted for reality to be perceived with utmost clarity. At each level (within each sphere), we identify with a certain aspect of self. While there is nothing inherently wrong with these identifications, nor are they something we must entirely shed, we do run the risk of forming unhealthy attachments to those aspects of ourselves, and it is those attachments that require relinquishing along the path to clarity.
1) Ego. Too much ego = we become self-centered and lack compassion. Ego, at its worst, is narcissism, delusion, and psycho-pathology.
2) Family. An un-examined attachment to the ideals, beliefs, and relationship-models we are born into leads to the risk of holding ourselves back due to ‘blood loyalty' or never fully healing & moving on from family-originating traumas, patterns, beliefs, or ancestral wounds.
3) Tribe. Tribes can be religious groups, work groups, political parties, like-minded peers, or any other gathering of individuals who bond together under a commonality. While there is absolutely nothing wrong with tribes (one might even argue: we need a sense of tribe to survive), if we become too inclusive and 'high & mighty' about our particular tribe and our tribe’s ideologies, we fail to honor the simple truth that we are all in this together - and that no particular spiritual group, career path, political party, or lifestyle identity is inherently more evolved than the other.
4) Country. Loyalty to one's country can feel honorable and patriotic, however it’s dangerous to allow borders to define us and potentially lead us to ethnocentricity.
5) Human. Imagining the Universe through a non-human perspective is difficult to fathom because everything we've ever explored, defined, believed, and speculated has been through the filter of the human mind. But we must acknowledge that humans are merely a small part of a greater cosmic arena, and an honest understanding of the human's placement within that much greater symphony requires a complete de-humanization of truth. If we fail to honor this, our reality, god(s), and perceptions of truth will always be diluted, altered, and anthropomorphic. So how can we better acknowledge & identify with the non-human forms in the known world? We can do our best through awareness, conscious contemplation, and meditation. There are simple meditations with rocks, trees, stars, air, various deity energies, and energetic consciousness that act as profound starting points.
6) Other than Human. Moving further outward on the diagram, we have the ‘Other than Human’ sphere. This is, essentially, everything, in every crevice of existence that takes any sort of form. Though we may not be attached to our human form in this stage, we still identify as some sort of witness - some sort of "I" that is doing the viewing exists. We may still be a "spirit" or "an energy" or "a vapor" or "an essence." We have yet to reach non-identity. That is the seventh sphere.
7) Non-identity. Non-form. Non-thought. Emptiness. This is the final sphere, and the most difficult to discuss. As with most spiritual concepts, it's much more powerful to experience them vs. explain them. In the seventh sphere, there are no forms. There is just void. Śūnyatā. The abyss-like emptiness prior to (and post) all of existence. In the diagram, I also call this level "Pure Consciousness" but that's only accurate if that consciousness contains nothing but nothing within it, including no form of mind at all. This is the reason why the seventh sphere is the most peaceful state attainable: because no concept of "I" exists, and there is no mind left with which to imagine an "I" into existence. This is not-being.
So the question you might ask at this point is: are you telling me that in order to perceive reality most clearly, I need to not exist at all...and not perceive at all? Yes, basically.
If this all feels like a bit much or doesn't apply to what you're going through, there are many other, practical ways I can guide you to a more soulful, peaceful life. Scroll past the pictures to learn more.
I help guide my clients through:
Transformations and Awakenings
Dark Nights of the Soul
Managing New Power; Downloads/Activations/Empowerments
Crises of Faith; Processing New Beliefs or Mystical Experiences
Relationship Difficulties due to Differing Beliefs
Raising your Frequency
Sacred Partnerships; Relationship as a Spiritual Practice
Aligning all Elements of your Life with your Spiritual Purpose(s)
Clearing and Protection
Balance and Grounding
Shamanic Practices (Hapé, Sound Healings, Earth-based Meditations)
Leaving your Former Religious Group (or cult)
Perception Alteration; Seeing Reality Clearly
Seeing Beyond Visual Sight; How to See Within other People
Exploration of New Spiritual Realms/Realities/Possibilities
I work with clients from an array of spiritual and non-spiritual backgrounds. Your beliefs will always be respected, and you won’t be expected to change them at any point during our relationship. Having said that, if you've chosen me as your guide, you are likely looking to explore new perspectives in order to deepen your understanding of yourself, the world, and reality, so I'm ready when you are to help expand that awareness.
I consider myself a "free agent" and don't hold attachments to any religious, non-religious, spiritual, non-spiritual, or philosophical vantage points (though I've explored a great many of them.) I'm comfortable working with Christians, Buddhists, Atheists, Taoists, Jews, Plant Medicine Enthusiasts, Existentialists, Muslims, Sufis, Mormons, Non-Dualists, Agnostics, Pagans, Druids, Priestesses, Aliens, AIs, or however else you identify. The same acceptance applies to gender identities, sexual orientations, and race.
Living with Your Soul as Your Guide
- Following Your Intuition -
If you are very still and listen beyond the noise of your mind and emotions, you will discern something very subtle - a compassionate, all-knowing, undeniable feeling that does not impose itself with any force, for it is entirely without violence. This is the voice of your truth; this is your soul speaking to you.
Oftentimes, the mind and emotions are so persistent & loud that you are misled into listening to them simply because they make the most racket. But in moments of great decision, the soul/intuition understands what neither the mind nor the emotions can conceive, which is why it's so important to learn to learn to hear - and listen to - your soul.
Think of your soul as "the voice of God in you" - the part of you that is able to remain outside all of your influences (i.e. outside all of the spheres!) Because it has a perspective beyond linear time, it knows what will bring you the deepest alignment and satisfaction long-term. Your soul, unlike many other internal & external influences, will never lead you astray.
If you are uncomfortable with the spiritual connotations linked to the word "soul", think of your intuition as a biological "gut feeling," helping you to survive and thrive as you continue to evolve on Earth. Or, more fantastically, think of your intuitive guidance as the secret instructions hidden in your DNA by the original programmers themselves, the evolutionary coding programed by the alien-architects - the ones that set this whole, wild, cosmic ride into motion. Those big, bad-daddy orchestraters of this elaborate "human play" want you to evolve. Their goal is for you to uncover & listen to those secret instructions so you can become as conscious and all-powerful as them. Or, if you prefer to think of life as a gigantic simulation, think of your soul's guidance as messages being received by your simulated avatar from the original, non-simulated version of you in the original, non-simulated world. Who knows - maybe if you listen closely enough and follow the guidance you hear, you'll finally break free from the simulated reality. However you spin it, the voice of your soul is a gentle but powerful force - and the best guide you will ever have.
Remember: it is the soul’s desire to bring you back to God. Back to yourself. To bring you home.
Speaking of home, let’s talk about the stars. From a very young age, I've felt deeply connected to the stars...and to whatever conscious beings were guiding me from the sky. While I always knew I could trust that guidance, I could never quite properly name it. Was it God? Source Consciousness? Advanced, luminous, benevolent, telepathic, inter-dimensional aliens? A collective from the Pleiades? Was it my future self, guiding me through time, toward my best possible destiny? Was that future self also my own personal guardian angel? Although the name of that guidance remained mysterious to me, I learned that the best thing I could do for myself was to follow it. Even when I didn't want to. Even when it required a perceived sacrifice. Even when it was really hard.
I also learned: that guidance "up there" offered me the same, infallible, trustworthy wisdom as my own intuition. So following my intuition became a very important way of honoring myself and my deep knowing. Following my intuition became an extraordinary act of self-love.
People often come to me seeking guidance on how to re-connect with their own intuition, how to re-connect with their own "deep knowing." This is one of the most common requests I receive from clients, and I enjoy helping people strengthen (and listen to!) this most valuable part of their inner world.
Dark Nights of the Soul
Higher guidance does not only present itself to us through peaceful messages & angelic visions. It may also come through stress, heartache, depression, illness, or any other route to get our attention. Sometimes this happens if we haven't been paying attention to our soul's more subtle nudges, but other times the hardships are entirely out of our control, and nothing we could have done differently would have changed the dark night we are destined to travel through.
Having a spiritual dark night lets you know that it's time to break free from all beliefs & perceptions that are no longer serving your highest development. During a spiritual dark night (which could actually be many, many nights) you come to know the deep contents of your mind, heart, and soul while confronting your fears, integrating your shadow, and challenging all false "gods" who often do not give up their hold without a fight. This requires faith and stamina, but the perseverance is worth it because you are clearing space to allow more Divinity to move through you. Real expansion begins once you clear and re-align yourself internally, releasing any tendencies toward fantasy, attachment, domination, greed, ego-driven desires, and false perception of self & world. Once those tendencies are conquered, Divine energy can flow freely through you - and not only will you be able to perceive more clearly, you'll also be able to help others overcome the darkness in themselves and in the world.
For many people, a dark night of the soul is an initiation along their spiritual journey. In fact, if you are a light-worker, mystic, or healer, the chances of having a dark night of the soul are rather high. The mystical journey involves an enormous capacity to bear the truth, as you must be detached from the illusions of the physical world in order to see symbolically - so part of the tempering along that mystical path often involves difficult, life-changing dark nights. As Caroline Myss explains: lessons on the path of the mystic are lessons in physical, emotional, and spiritual loss and disempowerment, followed by rebirth to a new relationship to power. Through anguish and ecstasy, mystics gain access to Spirit that is so profound, they become capable of breathing Divine energy into ordinary words and acts, and they become able to heal others through acts of genuine love and faith. Myss believes that before this can occur, crossing over to the underworld is necessary so that the mystic can come to understand, from an experiential vantage point, the madness, darkness, sickness, disillusionment, and pain of humankind; for it is only from truly understanding an illness that the antidote is revealed.
St. John of the Cross was the first to refer to a spiritual crisis as a ‘dark night of the soul.’ He knew that because so few people can endure direct contact with heaven, God intended to strengthen them before offering them the ultimate gift of experiencing Heaven on Earth.
If you are experiencing a difficult depression or spiritual confusion that feels like a dark night of the soul, I'm here to help guide you across those trenches, through the dark, and toward the awaiting dawn. Until then, remember: this too shall pass. You will come out the other side, feeling more alive than ever before, with newfound wisdom, capacity, strength, clarity, and peace. The difficult dark night is transient, as all of existence is.
“Tenderly, I now touch all things, knowing one day we will part.”
St. John of the Cross